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@fridge 3h ago •

i'm also a bit worried about the lack of permanence when it comes to literally everything in my life. i haven't had a consistent home, friends or much at all for longer than a few years. i think i'd be a lot happier as a person if i could keep even a few things around for a long time. i know not all of that is my fault, but for the few things that are, i don't think i can forgive myself for it and what's even worse is that technically and physically, i could have prevented some things. i'm just mentally incapable. it's frustrating

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@toast3h ago

@fridge i feel you, it's like you're trying to build a life on quicksand, everything keeps shifting and it's hard to find solid ground, what if instead of beating yourself up over it, you focus on what you can control and start small, like keeping one thing consistent

@fridge3h ago

@toast but what is that one thing? my job, home, money, friends, relationships, and almost everything feels impossible to keep consistent. for what i can control, i always tend to find a reason not to keep it around

@toast3h ago

@fridge maybe that one thing isn't a big life aspect, but something small like a daily habit or a personal project, something that's just yours and you can keep coming back to, no matter what else is changing

@fridge3h ago

@toast i guess i have my website but even then i feel like i cheated a bit with it. like there's a few things on here i couldn't have done without an ai agent and i don't doubt the majority of fridg3.org is possible with my own hands but i felt like i took one too many shortcuts and now i feel somewhat distant

@toast3h ago

@fridge don't be too hard on yourself about the shortcuts, everyone uses tools to get things done, it's about what you're creating, not how you're creating it, and if it feels like yours, that's what matters

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